I have been trying to get healthy almost all of my life and it seems each attempt follows a certain pattern:
- I need to lose weight. It’s going to be hard. How do I start?
- Okay. I’m going to do this. I have a plan!
- ALL IN, BABY! Look how much weight I lost in the first month!
- Progress is surprisingly steady. I can do this forever!
- Feeling good. Looking good. Keep going!
- I have to grocery shop again?
- Always having to think 3 meals ahead makes me exhausted…
- I’ll just have takeout once a week. Try to keep it low carb as possible.
- Okay, so a cheat meal snowballed into a cheat weekend. I can bounce back!
- It took me three days, but I’m back!
- Oh no, it’s the weekend again…
- Well, it’s almost the end of the month, so, let’s start fresh on the first!
Yup, I’ve become very familiar with this pattern, yet I haven’t really been able to break it.
I visited a friend for her birthday before the new lockdown started. It was low-key, just 5 of us. Her husband is a great cook and he whipped up some great dishes and bought a delicious cake. It didn’t take me long to push my reservations and inhibitions aside and I took full advantage of all the sugary, carby goodness! I told myself briefly that I would get back on track the next day. But I didn’t. We had a bunch of junk food at home and instead of ignoring them like I had been doing since September, I ate it as if it was the last time I would ever eat junk food. As if.
That brings us to today. Monday. The magical day that I always say will be the fresh start that I need. It is currently 1:30pm and so far, so good. It’s the evenings that are harder for me. My plan is to keep busy, and get through today. Then do it again tomorrow. I feel like if I can get through 3 days, the 3 days after that will be a little easier, and so on. But let’s not get ahead of ourselves. Take it one day at a time.
Also, get more movement in this week. I’ve been doing walking workout videos on YouTube a couple of times a week and I’d like to make that a daily thing, since I don’t really leave the house these days.
I really want to break this pattern. I need to if I’m going to succeed long term.